That is indeed an interesting theme...
There are many points, that Anat and Romy wrote, that I can sign, observing children and grown ups.
I was always different though.
As a child somehow, I was torn by those extremely sensitive horses and I would keep on just caring for them until outer circumstances pulled us apart. At those times, I had only one horse to care for at a time. There was always one horse like that in the ridingschools, I still remember them all quite clearly . The other kids never cared for them. Those horses were too complicated, I guess. As I can remember it now, it wasn t about wanting clear structures or no surprises about what horse I get today. Instead, I was interested in those characters, I resume now. Obviously, I was never interested in just riding, I suppose, but in the things behind the riding. I do think though, that it was somehow important to me, that I was the only one interacting regularly with the horse...to be honest
Well these days concerning Zermi and my relationship, I can admit, that it is also about habits or rather being familiar with each other. I know Zermi more than any other horse and since I often help other horseowners, who are sick or in holidays, I have the opportunity to see that this is clearly one of the things I love about Zermi and me. When I did interact with other horses and come back to Zermi, it feels like coming home. We have cultivated our language, we both agree with and we know each other very well in the meantime.
What I wrote back then, was absolutely right in the beginning:
And thinking about what you wrote, Romy, I wondered, what makes Zermatt MY horse.
Firstly, he is a personality, who I admire, but who at the same time irritates me, because he is so sensitive, clear, consequent and strong and at the same time he has got so many fears and due to his clarity and strength, I guess, he is showing them frankly.
Then, he is a personality, that feels so familiar for me to be with. And when I considered why, I came to the same attributes, I mentioned before...
This is our basis...
But in the meantime, both of us develope jointly, while influencing each other. The more time we spend together, the more we change congruently.
I would never ever want to exchange the horse. I am very interested in communicating with other horses, but on a more sketchy level. But the most interested I am in how far Zermi and I can go into depth with our interaction.
I often wonder about "friendship" . I also have very few friends and those, I have since a long time and it took a while, before I called them friends. I don t really know a good definition for friendship, I have to think about it. I don t really care, if I should call him a friend or not. He is an animal and has no ethics in the sense, we human have it. As a flight animal, he has to have a completely different perception of the world around and has to give different meanings to situations and relationships, than I do.
I know though, that I love to be with him and to which point I can trust him and that he takes me the way I am and I can take him the way, he is. If this is friendship, fine.
So to me, Zermi feels like the ONE horse and MY horse. But that doesn t feel to me like a sentimental mood. It is just the way it is. I don t know, if this might change one day, but I can t imagine it at all right now.
Anni, your family sounds wonderfull...