I think this is so interesting, because I am the total opposite. Rationally, I know that I am constantly changing in my interests, the particular activities with my horses and my ways of setting my focus on different themes in the horse-human interaction. Next year I will do things differently than I am doing them now. But I don't feel this. I always feel like I am exactly at the right place, exactly where I want to be. That flow is something that happens completely outside my awareness.
There are two different dimensions in which I feel. There ist a general dimension, the macro-level so to say. There I sometimes feel a bit restless, overwhelmed, or overwrought by so many ideas and impressions. I want to experience so many different things. I want to train the horse, I want to play with her, I want to teach her tricks, I want to go on a walk with her, I want to ride her, I want to try out different methods, and last but not least I want to understand her, make her feel happy with me.
Then there ist a micro-level. This level ist my at-the-moment-feeling when I am with Leni. This ist the moment when I am totally filled with the moment. I just do things then, and mostly they feel right.
In the last 6 years many things concerning horses have fully changed for me. I think, when I open a diary here, it will be my diary - cause Leni has hers in the RW forum. I think I will want to reflect my own way.
For me it was a high speed in which I learned in the last years. And now, with Leni, everything's happening and changing even faster. (I need the what-did-I-miss-smiley
At the moment I feel a bit caught between two stools. On the one hand there is so much old "knowledge". Training a horse, educate it, "break" it (I don't like the english word for making the horse to accept me on its back). On the other hand, I enjoy time with my pony so much and she's so nice and I want her to be happy to be with me. I want to lose some of the pressure. But I am also convinced that it is important for her to have enough excercise (well, she's norwegian, loves to eat evertime and everything and could lose some weight...) and to walk in a way that makes it easier for her to carry me one day.
So, I try to combine both. But I am not certain how to do it.
When I came here first, I have read hours and hours in the different threads and diaries. Sooo much information!
Hi jaz :-) I also stumpled over your diary, but then I couldn't read further because I had to go to work. But I will read it later, cause I followed the discussion in the RW forum and am interested in the reactions you got in this forum. I think, it is the best example to combine two things: Fun, motivation, team-work AND healthy movement of the horse. But before I tell you my opinion about the video, I will read here in your diary. :-)