For me, the very worst thing about the way the NHE forum was run, was the way it encouraged otherwise pleasant people to "rat on their neighbour" ... denounce un-NHE ness where ever it could be found, in the hopes that it would prove their own worthiness.
I fell under that spell momentarily, in the heady moments when I first made my application to the school and wanted to prove my worth. One negative and unkind post to show a newbie the error of their thinking later.. I realised that I had succumbed to the most simple form of brainwashing and mass control and let myself down.
I was later treated very unkindly, rudely, dismissively by people who would soon become representatives. I watched as others too came under their lash, while others again were praised in glowing terms and nurtured. Sweetness and sourness alternated in the confusion. I didn't feel too much bitterness towards them.. I understand how easy it is to let this happen. Sometimes I checked in the "horse revolution" pages, and was not shocked to see that the people who moved up the ladder the fastest were not those who displayed a deep understanding of the methods of NHE training and the ability to translate that understanding into practical self advancement and teaching, but those who were willing to search out NHE ness, and denounce it the most volubly.
This is all, of course,
, my own appraisal of things, and could all be one sided and totally wrong.
However. The news gives me neither much surprise nor much sadness.
Let the Healing begin.
I have not sought the horse of bits, bridles, saddles and shackles,
But the horse of the wind, the horse of freedom, the horse of the dream. [Robert Vavra]