I'm so glad you wrote this introduction. And I hope and pray that you will be able to sell your house and be able to be near your horse again. Appy is
beautiful, I'd love to see more pictures of him. I'm another person who needs to learn from people who know dressage, having learned about it mostly from books and videos. Everything you said about riding in balance I agree with so much. While I also need quiet solitude fairly regularly, I'm not as extroverted as my wordiness suggests
, I love to share experiences with people who are as openminded as people here. So please, please, share more about your experiences with horses and also about your "hermit" experiences.