First, I just couldn't resist responding to this:
So I have been thinking a lot recently about thinking about 'what I want to be when I grow up' a bit late being already 20 I know!.
If it makes you feel any better I'm 46 and still trying to figure out what I want to be when I grow up. Or even if I'm willing to grow up!
Second, here are some thoughts for you about trainers' work you might explore:viewtopic.php?f=7&t=3136
You might also like this intro to Carolyn Resnick's work:viewtopic.php?f=7&t=2123
The podcast that Karen mentions is marvelous, by the way.
A place to start, at least!
"Ours is the portal of hope. Come as you are." -- Rumi www.imaginalinstitute.com