Thanks, Lena!
Our discussion about drawing has really made me think. This is also why I was questioning you so much about what drawing is for you, because this is helping me to better understand what it is for me. For me drawing is not about the picture - which probably is the reason why I hardly ever finish a drawing. If someone asked me to tear it into pieces now, I would not mind doing so, even when I like a picture. This is because once the picture is there, the thing that matters for me is over already.
For me drawing is about the process of doing it. It's about learning about the characteristics of the lines and the shadows, and the effects of my actions as they are reflected in the picture. In a way, for me drawing is just like playing with the horses or children, or like working on my research, or working with you. It's a way for me to put all I have into what I am currently doing, regardless of what will come out of it. Somehow this very process of fully engaging in an activity is what makes me feel alive. Reminds me of something my mother always said: It does not matter what you are doing in life - what matters is that you are doing it well.